My love will stay wif u forever .. I AM TOTALLY SO NOT OK..... i cant control... what is this...is only lyk afew wks start of 2013 n i juz failed to meet my resolution...cried for the past 2 wks.... so fedup tt i juz throw awasy e new yr resolution tt i wrote tt day.....now im so loss....is lyk trap in a wu bian wu ji de da hai bu zhi gai wang qian zou wang na zou or juz stay put.....ytd wasnt so bad but at nite n today it juz.........i wsanna do sth crazy for me to fa xie... ear piercing? e urge getting abit stronger....maybe i shld go out for a walk go nex or cp starbuck mug oso shuang maybe i shld do tt.... anyway juz exercise but doesnt seems to keep me happy....blast music .....sad song makes me cried harder.... retail therapy? bluey contacts for a moment i feels better but now here im blogging....actualli blogging is good i can realli write wat i wan here for myself to release myself........ since it stops raining maybe i shld step out of e hse.... ear piercing maybe i would if i have money now....but abit broke can only wqait till pocket money come..... i dun lyk myself for being so weak!!!i shld l;earn to be stronger n not hold things so tightly...i shld learn to let go but it is hard when dere seems to be some hope or false hope maybe.... i will only let go when there is realli no hope totalli no hope n when im being told straight in my face tt i lose.......... who can i share all this with...... sumtm i suddenly realise tt at this stage of life there is 2 grps of pple tt will always be dere for u. family n good friends...
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