As we grow up we find tt our heart our mind is no longer pure n clear n clean lyk how we used to be when we were young. With all e factors and our surrounding affecting how we see things, feel n tink, no matter how hard we try to be pure lyk kids we can nv reach tt level bcos all this factors n things we experience in life has consciously or even subconsciously affect us n e decision we make....
Sometime how i wish we can turn bck the time to e time where we are all angel little kids that has a pure mind...but we cant....

So now is dere realli no way tt we can make our heart pure.... Dun tink so or maybe dere is juz tt it is not gg to be easy....

This actualli strikes me when having a convo with a fren....
Is dere realli a gal out there tt doesnt choose to be with a rich guy... I tink is kindof hard. As in we may say we love tt person but wat makes our heart move towards them is sumtm affected by all this factors subconsciously....
By using money, car to attract gal n make gal flock to u, can u realli find tgrue love? A gal can walk into ur life becos of all this but she can oso leave u n walk into another person life with tt same reason...if tt e case how r u gg to differentiate who is sincere n who is not sincere...n oso with tt mindset to use money n car to attract gals ,tink tt gal will fly to u, wun ur mindset be affected tinking tt evy gal tt make fren with u is not sincere???

Hahahs im so happy...today is e 1st time in my life i tio 4d!!! Hahahs although only win $3 but i oso shuang hahas...cos is e thrill n happiness of winning hahahs....

Lols...suddenly got e urge to lian 6pac lols......

Look at all e acc stuff n evyone looking at acc... Is so FUCKING STRESS!!! Ps abit vulgar but this is e only place where i can be so vulgar, fb n twitter got too mani pple not good to use such word....

I realli nid to stop tinking about all this detrimental stuff... Nid to conc on my studies!!!...
Wat on my mind now...self doubt...
Im lyk so quiet n this realli makes me wonder do i hav e zi ge to go into a rs... Realli afraid tt guy will get bored of me being so quiet....i realli cant talk....
Realli afraid tt i cant find e right person with my quietness....
Y m i lyk this!!!...how i wish i can be a talkative person.....with endless things to talk to evyone....
This self doubt , low confidence n low esteem is realli detrimental.....i shldnt hav such a thot!!! Where is my confidence!!!!

In life mani of e time we dun get wat we wan... We usualli end up getting less or not even getting wat we hope to get...this often end up as disappointment... Hence e story learn is dun expect too much in life sumtm by not tinking about wat u wan juz lets things go n go along with wat life brings u to u mite end up happier since u dun expect n dere wun be much disappointment...人生就是这样。。。就像是一场游戏， 有时被耍得团团转。。。。

Gonna go out meet up with eileen n zh!!! Hahahs...seems lyk we hav noe each other for a long long time le....shall shill abit b4 gg bck later to chiong studies for investment quiz...sian...ytd do acc proj do till wan vomit blood e progress is juz sooooo slow...i dun lyk to drag things...lyk to chop chop get things done.... But ytd is lyk qi daooooo......

U r making me crazy!!!!making my heart crazy my mind crazy....i nid to stop tinking n start to conc on my studies....this feeling seems familar but i forgt when was it tt i felt tt ....juz hope tt i can stop tinking n stop feeling....

M i having sum prob.... Im seriously damn scared of gg out with guy alone one to one...seriously...even if is close fren... Super scared awkwardness....omg lyk tt how!!!! How m i gg to find bf lyk tt....i tink v soon my mindset will change maybe...from looking to go into a rs to maybe i shldnt go into a rs.... Hahahs....

U have juz came into my life n make it a mess....pls dun giv me false hope... Juz when im bout to give up u came bck in agn with ur friendliness.... Realli dun lyk false hope....scared of this kind of thing....past experience is enuff, i dun wan tt agn....