What's the difference between solitude and loneliness? For me, the difference is solitude is something you WANT and feel comfortable with, a peaceful, relaxing and inspirational space, and loneliness is an UNWANTED experience of being on your own.
I believe one of the greatest fears we have is the fear of loneliness, especially the loneliness that we feel when we are without a lover.
This fear traps many of us into unfulfilling or destructive relationships, or leads us into pursuing the wrong person just to AVOID being on our own.
When The Hermit appears in your reading, it may represent the loneliness you feel at the time. And remember, it is possible to feel more isolated and lonely in an unhappy relationship or marriage than when you are actually on your own!
If this is the case, the card is suggesting you take time out for inner reflection. In fact, The Hermit is also known as the Contemplation card in some Tarot decks. Why do you feel lonely?.... N e things go on....blablabla....this is e card reading got from lotus tarot about e meaning for e cards....is kindof true....seems lyk tarpt seems quite accurate or it sumtm reflects how one feels quite accurately...n oso this gives e person a direction as to wat he or she shld do....

Hahahs anyway its holiday!!! My 1wk of recess wk!!!! Short but juz enjoy it enjoy evy single day ....hahahs although there is still alot of wk to do but i doesnt seems tt bad rite...i dunno y pple r lyk making it sounds tt dere is alot of wk to be done...all this can be done ba....

Starting to feel tt im realli quiet...i cant strike a convo with pple...i juz çant tink of anything to talk aboutT.T i can sms alot apps alot n sumtm it comes easily with certain pple, but when comes to face to face interaction i juz run out of convo.... Sumtm even trying hard to tink of sum convo to say....y m i lyk tt...this makes me realli wonder if i can eva find e right guy in my life...cos is lyk ur gg to be e person for e rest of ur life n if u ran out of convo how is tt gg to wk....realli cant understand how husband n wife can face each other evyday n has endless things to talk about... Wonder y pple has so much to talk about whereas me im finding hard to tink of sth to talk about...

Anyway with this self doubt, lucky there is horoscope. Juz msaw e horoscope vfor libra today n it says shld makse new fren n my communication, conversational skill is not anything less than other...sumtm horo is kindof accurate n can serve as a way to boost ur confident....or if u hav anything bothering u sumtm they kindof give u e ans....

Starting to feel tt some guys juz cant be trusted...or u juz cant see pple from e surface.... Think they approach gal with a certain motive....base on look...they see u nice looking they approach u....is lyk not purely base on friendship n wanting to make fren with u....

Realli had so much fun doing voluntary wk at nkf carnival ytd at marina barrage!!!! Was in charge of e drink stalls.... Realli saw another side of me...e outgoing sociable side hahahs...realli went dere n juz go all out without holding back...at 1st go dere juz straight away ask e pple dere lyk wat can i help blablabla all tt...after tt when i started to sell e drink is lyk evything juz comes naturally lyk asking pple hi do u wan a drink, any drink for u....it was v busy tiring n hot but n great experience, this one day compare to e 6mths of wking at a retail shop previously, i realli feel e diff... E retail job is realli im doing it bcos i hav to do it...n this im approaching n interating with customers willingly n happily without any stress... At nite cos gg to sell off all den they change to 1 for $1 is lyk i oso shout out....is lyk compare to tt time als selling bubble tea for fund raising i refused to shout out...can realli see e diff...maybe is e envi n evything i dunno... But realli glad tt i went for e event...maybe i shall join more of such things nxt time....

Anyway this blog has been here for v v v long...is lyk at least 5yrs i guess...realli kind of surprise to see tt this blog actualli survived for so long although lyk sometimes n kindof forgt bout it cos life is juz too busy n u hav fb n twitter where u can post things....but after all this blog is still a place for me to write wateva i wan n feel without having to consider who isd reading it n whether will it affect others since i guess no one is reading this blog, unlyk fb n twitter whereby evyone ur fren n family can see wateva u post.....
Sometime u juz nid a place to write out wat u feel without much restriction n consideration....
It realli feel good after writting wateva tt has been hiding in e heart in e mind which u hav no chance of expressing it.....

Sometimes i realli hope tt i can read pple mind to noe wat exactly are pple thinking esp about me....u realli dunno wat a person is thinking sometimes...their intention their motives. Whether r they sincere or not....how they see u n see things.....

I tink i realli hav low self esteem...after reading e 21st century txtbk....lyk i have some of e characteristics eh....T.T ....


I refused to step out of my comfort zone...n im aware of it...unless im lyk force or lyk with fren tt persuade me to step out n try something if not i will juz choose to stay within e comfort zone...lack e courage.....cant do much....maybe cos i choose not to.....

Wat lies ahead is realli unknown.....

Juz went bck bowen with eileen to interview miss loh about career stuff...and e moment we went is lyk all e memories juz came back evything looks so familiar....so huai nian life in bowen...familiar place familiar pple familiar tcher familiar road back home evything seems so familiar...ffels lyk gg back to ur home after so long....but one thing is we r no longer young....although things remain relatively same pple oso do remain almost e same im still as quiet n eileen still as talkative maybe this are e things tt realli wun change no matter how hard u try to change....realli glad tt i went back bowen...miss loh told us alot of things her perceptions which realli let u see things differently....i guess being a tcher a prof to a certain extend they r lyk hopping to see their students do well not juz in studies but in life... Is lyk they r sincere towards their students n helping students see their potential....
Kindof hope to turn back e clock n return to sec sch time....where life is juz so carefree so fun...where u make close fren commit to cca, find a sense of identity as a choirm member...evyone juz wk towards e same goal hoping to achieve wat we wan....it maybe stress but is definitely fun n memorable...a one time experience tt u will nv get to experience agn.....realli hope time can juz stop here.....

Juz went for bank recruitment fair...after hearing some of e banks talks all tt im getting more confused n worried....is banking realli suitable for me i realli wonder....still dunno wat e banks realli do...lyk wat exactly is investment banking, private banking......etc...realli confused...n oso dunno how is e job scope lyk whether isit more front line or back end job...hope to involved in those back end but realli dunno r those ib n private bank n even consumer banking isit lyk more of sales type thing or lyk bckend thing....aigoo!!!! I nid ice cream to make me feel good now....realli feel v bad now after e thing....

Sum Guys are juz realistic....they approach u bcos of ur look...if u dun look good they dun even bother...n after getting to noe u n other girls at e same time once they found e one they starts to dao u....so they make fren is look..., with motive....=.=
But of cos not all guys r lyk this,,, but i would say quite a number r lyk this....